No More

With the rising ray

Beginning my day

Open my eyes

With a smile

Feeling you there

Sleeping by my side

With the stars twinkling

Moon shining

I lie alone gazing

Suddenly, a curve blends

And I smile

When in no time

I find myself

By your side

I hear, that laughter

Those chuckles and giggles

And with them

The reality whispers

Sleep my love

For I am gone

No more there

To spend and share

I then freeze

Mind just shuts

Holding myself tight

I sleep away past

And thus pass the night

The day again

Hits my face

I take up tasks

With a smiley mask

Waiting for it to end

And meet you again.

Why……???

Questions, queries

Answers, replies

Expectations, realisations

If that’s what you want,

If that’s what is needed,

If that’s what,

The time is asking for?

Are you alright?

If that’s what, you need,

For a question……

Certainly, it feels miserable,

If that’s what, you want,

As an answer……

Shrunk into the depths,

The depths of guilt

If that’s where, you expect,

Me to be

The sound of silence,

If that’s what, you want

Me to hear

Infinite darkness,

If that’s what, you want

Me to see

Lips zipped, hands tied,

Cursed, shaken by you

I lay beside,

Agonised, praying,

To my dreams, whispering

I know you,

You share the same,

Then why?

Why this pain?

This trouble?

Let the cloud burst

Pour out the rain

Make that old sound

Making each second

A memory profound.


---- This piece of writing is a joint venture of aadi and myself.
thanks a tonne aadi for getting me to this :)

The Bitter-Sweet

In the beginning,

THE END.

The story still began_____

No past, no future,

Just a present,

The gifted moment.

Blazing brilliance,

Silvery radiance.

Living two lives,

Living it wise.

Twinkling stars,

Morning rays,

Evenings, noon,

Merged soon.

Watered innocence,

Fragrant freshness,

Blossomed each night.

The suppressed child,

Grew with each fight.

Few ups and

Few downs

Hung ups – Tie ups,

They still moved on.

Living two lives,

Living it wise

No past, no future,

Just a present, present.

Learning, discovering,

Realising, transforming,

Confused, tired,

Exhausted, retired.

Amidst_______

The whisky, whispers,

And_________

The silent murmurs.

Holding close,

Holding tight,

Pulling down,

Drenched and drowned.

To sway again,

In the pouring rain,

and 

the rising ray.

In the second part,

Living better half.

Spreading the joy,

Living contended.

Savouring all,

Especially, the unintended.

No past, no future,

Just a present, present.

Living two lives,

Living it wise.

Dwelling in time,

Time that ripened,

and

Slipped off the hands

Alike dry sand.

Unsaid, said,

Undone, done.

Living two lives,

Flocked and flew.

With________

A new beginning

In__________

THE END.

हूँ यहाँ , हूँ वहां...........

सारा सन्नाटा 

खुद में समेंटे 

जी रही हूँ यहाँ,

एक हंसी लेके 

उन पलों के सहारे 

जी रही हूँ ,

जी रही हूँ,

यहाँ , हूँ वहां,

उन पलों में ,

समेंटे थे ख्वाब ,

वोह खुशियाँ,

उन पलों की सच्चाई,

किसी पल का अरमान था,

याद नहीं आती,

क्यूंकि-----

उन्ही में यहाँ

मै जी रही हूँ,

किन्तु,

दर्द होता है,

जब दूर-----

टिमटिमाते तारों में,

खुद को नहीं पाती हूँ,

इंतज़ार है एक बार,

फिर से उस बहार का

युहीं समय काट रही हूँ,

हूँ यहाँ ,

हूँ वहां.

Absence by Pablo Neruda

Absence by Pablo Neruda

If Only I Knew

if only i knew
would 've mend it all

if only i knew
what i 've been apoloziging for
if only i knew

wish i DID
desire i KNEW.

none of your fault
all mine
only me to blame

only me to rectify
only me to mend
mend it all

all by myself.

the mess i made

the torture i did
the wounds 

is all if i could heal.

oh God_______
so helpless i feel.

tears please have mercy
sadness shower thy blessings
for i am naive

to my own actions
and his concerns
and his love

and his care.
if only i knew....
my words were so powerful

words so harsh
or actions so pricking
would have never 

done at all.

which of these 

is TRUE
if only i knew 
would mend them all.

i am the cause
i am the effect

i am the reason 
i am the result.

if only i knew.......
if only you said.......
or

if only i was sensitive
if only i was patient.

i know not the reasons
know not the actions
all that dejection

i just cant bear at all.

the wounds 

is all if i could heal.
oh God_______
so helpless i feel.

Yess ...!!! I see_______

I see rhythm,

I see symphony,

And i see.....

The harmony.

And now....i see

The “Poet” in me....

I hear beauty,

I hear Kalaa,

I hear her smile

And now...

I smell anger,

I smell love,

I smell the virgin.

And now....i see

The “Poet” in me....

I feel the sunshine,

I feel the moonlight,

I feel the poet.

Yess ...!!!

I see_______

A “Poet” in me.

[this piece of creation is by my friend Adarsh and not me]

DREAM of a REALITY

Reality : a dream.

Lived-enlivened

Relished-garnished.

Savouring the taste-----

Eyes smiled,

Feet stroked.

Lips blended,

Body froze,

Mind wandered.

Life shrunk

Into minutes.

Living by the

Energy of seconds------

Snuggled in warmth,

Stiffened in shivers,

Laughed of loneliness,

Blushed in happiness.

Flaps fluttered,

Body shook.

Wanderings still,

Shrink stretched.

A reality check.

The dream------- a far story.

Reality------- a curtained stage.

An unspoken theory,

Open eyes ignorant.

But the closed saw--------

Hidden dream of the reality,

Stage through the curtains.

A belief in the theory,

A faith in the reality.

Wish the eyes would close,

Soon again------

To feel, to live.

What they saw,

In the dream.

the DREAM of a REALITY,

a REALITY like a DREAM !!!!

Pinch.....

Lushness smiling,

The spread blooming.

Carpeted bareness,

Sparkling shyness.

Soft steps,

Silent whispers,

Said – unsaid,

The moments of togetherness.

Scenic beauty,

Garnishing minutes.

Gradients of colour,

Glowing the hour.

Muted movements,

Precious gestures.

An unuttered sound

Sinking in so profound.

   Yet unspoken was loud

The untouched alike

........A filled blue cloud.

Gathering each second,

Storing them safe.

The dream i dreamt,

True today.....

Just say the unsaid,

Pinch, touch ....say

Make believe ........

Its no more my dream

No more mine alone

The moment,

Most perfect,

A you 

A me

Just WE

An unsaid sound

Sinking in so profound!!!!

PS : remember i told you each other we knew 

A Perfect DAY.........

Life playing its chords,

Me playing mine,

A beautiful symphony.

Rhythm in the air,

Smelling the chills,

Heat  in the  soul.

Feet on their moves,

Fingers on the run,

Lips on their beauty,

Eyes busy too....

A perfect start,

A pefect end,

What more can i say....

------THE END-----

A new beginning

Soon to take off.

Each day a task,

Night, an awaited moment.

Living but dormant

Discovering accepting

Walking over,

Walking away,

Trying to smile,

Retain the pace,

Save the energy.

A mistake

Or

A challenge.....

Or

An assumption again....???

a Slow take

Knew not thee

Thought knew me.

Began knowing thee,

Realized .....

Knew not me.